Sasha,
Though I would not ever erase anything that has happened in our life for fear of taking away the future we have created, there is an unnecessary damage that could have been avoided. Right now, at age seventeen, you are damaging your relationship based on events in the past. You are forming an image of men that doesn't, and never will, exist anywhere but in your past.
You feel that it has to do with the past men you have chosen, but it also has to do with those who should have chosen you. Though your concerns are valid, you are at fault for allowing it to form your judgments and accusations of the new people in your life.
This person is different. This person is trusting, loyal, and loving. This person has not ever lied to you. He does not keep secrets, his words have no ulterior motives, he understands your crazy, and the levels of your pain. He values you as a person and as his best friend. It is a mantra you need to start repeating. Start repeating it, draw it, learn it, and let his love in.
It is honest and true.
The amount of forgiveness and understanding that has come from this man deserves a better image in your mind.
Love,
A Stronger Us.
